I've had the best few weekends,
Precious friends, I've had my fill of time and encouragement, intimate and refreshing moments.
I felt like if i was to find a word for me this year, then my word would be 'moments'.
Making the most of any moments that come along ....
A surprise visit from a treasured trio, having dinner and beautiful catch ups over the bird-cage placemats i'd been saving,
another moment (or evening) i'll never forget.
On the home front we've made pom poms.
Hillarious. Time consuming. retro. recycling. My babes have loved it.
Another one of those moments along with celebrations that make life together, together.
We're also reading CS Lewis ..... He is so great!
Autumn has made me feel the love! I've been stopped in my steps as i've admired and taken in creation, esp the red parts of the nature trail i live in!
But not is all positive and pretty in life (like when i took the above photo, my car was loosing it's head-gasket capacity, on a trip very far out of town!) although it's pretty darn good.
this is going to sound so weird, this next part, but if you can pretend you are in my head for a mo, you might get it!
I joined facebook. i connected to that thing which i never thought i would.
And it's been doing my head in.
Yes funny i know. I laugh at myself.
I find it confusing on a few levels, even though it's meant to be simple stupid.
I feel bad if i don't want to be 'friends' with someone and click the 'not now' button.
I also feel in control (which i like) of who my virtual friends can be, but feel stressed by the mere decision.
Anywho, for some reason i find it stressful. I'm asking myself why?
Why oh why he he?
Maybe it's just new and unfamiliar.
Maybe it's just making me feel a little out of control.
As I write this i realise that
since the husband-guy left our family, I've tried to hold on to the other things that i have control of.
And fb makes me feel a little out of control.
Understanding myself more, is part of the journey i'm on and i guess this silly moment has helped me to know a bit more of myself.
Funny thing really. feel rather stupid but wanted it to get out of my head onto some sort of paper (my virtual paper) so i could see it more clearly.
As clearly as i see this wee autumn cherub
Thanks for the moments I've had with you lately, whether in the flesh or via the web!
Love being able to pick who can read this wee bloggy thing with no pressure xx.
oh a wee quote to finish - take a mo ....
Anna Quindlen
So here's what I wanted to tell you today: Get a life.
Get a real life, not a manic pursuit of the next promotion, the bigger paycheck, the larger house. Do you think you'd care so very much about those things if you blew an aneurysm one afternoon, or found a lump in your breast?
Get a life in which you notice the smell of salt water pushing itself on a breeze over Seaside Heights, a life in which you stop and watch how a red-tailed hawk circles over the water gap or the way a baby scowls with concentration when she tries to pick up a Cheerio with her thumb and first finger.
Get a life in which you are not alone. Find people you love, and who love you.
