Sat in the sun today, three diff times with two others and then myself. Such delight considering this time last week it was snowing. weird weather patterns but no complaining here.
When it did snow, miracle of miracles (approx 80 years since it had snowed in the city we live in!), I was ecstatic. I felt like a child would, screaming with delight inside and out. I actually felt like unexpected treats from the sky had fallen, landing on the hard soil of my heart. With all it's beauty, i was softened again, just like the snow (before it becomes black ice!).
It has been no-mans-land experience for me for awhile. this year probably. I have felt like i'm walking in a land i'm not familiar at all with. No drama's are presenting themselves with the man-land i used to live in. good news. But no adventure is looming it appears. It's just plain. Rather simple. Not much direction but still there is life. Life in my job and the things i'm passionate about. Fun and craziness with my kids.
Yet it feels a little uncomfortable. Not knowing what could or would be coming round the corner. I kind of feel a little numb about life at the mo. a bit ho-hum. It's not a bad kind of eeyore sort of feeling. It's more of a blah feeling. Perhaps i'm needing a party!!
Even better might be some decent questions to get me thinking from some of my question-asking friends (like these snowballs hitting me square in the face - surprise mum!)
All in all i'm not sure what is happening in my head (hence the lack of blog material) but when the snow did falleth, i felt like a surprise visit from above had landed just for me.
So I posed, just like my precious girl, to soak it all in!
And it was a ye ha moment.
Reminding me that things come which i would never expect, when i'm feeling like i'm living in big blah land. Quite lovely really.
As well as the snow - i shot a clay bird! It was a lucky shot truth be known as i was very inaccurate in my approach to shooting. But when it happened i was thrilled to pieces (as well as mightily surprised!) - check my face out!
And then, there is always a then ........ my dear heart precious Caz and her lovely friend had to stay another night with us on their way passing through (due to the treacherous snow conditions in nz he he). Liv had been sharing her thoughts with me re her dad (they pop up every now and then which opens up our world to conversation, prayers, love and tenderness). Her finishing comment was "I wish we had someone else sitting at the table ......" And then Caz arrives. Someone else. Making us feel not so smallish and cute. Even though we are - cute that is. xx
