tweny-10

Hello twenty-ten. I really like your name for this year. It’s short and snappy. It’s rather cool.

I’m thinking it’s important to look back a little on last year, not to get depressed (“you’re soooo last year!”) but to take the good stuff into tweny-ten. I’d also like to look forward to this year, maybe a goal or two. I haven’t done that kind of thing for awhile – Main goal has been SURVIVAL.

09 saw me get better at saying NO to offers or jobs that I didn’t need. That was good.

09 saw me eat something special just about every night after dinner whilst watching yet another borrowed movie. I’d like to see less of that and more reading maybe. Definitely.

09 was a year where I made some great connections with all sorts of people. To take that to another level where I invite them home for a meal or support them in some way, to invest in their lives and to perhaps be a little or a lot more of Jesus to them, is always something I wanna do.

Coffee was a stable and daily thing. A sure stayer.

Creativity was allowed to flow more in the fullness of my life – in problems, in home deco and baking. I love you creativity. I love seeing you in others and I love you being more at home with me.

I’d like to read more this year. I have some amazing books. I have some lovely spots around my house to lounge about in reading those books. You can do it Sarah!

2009 was another opportunity, to show my girls that we could live life despite the sad normality of our smaller family situation. I’m hoping that we will be able to find and see more of God in the vulnerability of our situation. L, the just about 6 year old, is expressing herself incredibly well at present. She talks of ‘finding it so hard with the life-change we are having’. “Mum”, she whispers at midnight recently, “is the life-change hard for you too? Does it make you sad mum?”

“It is just so sad. I sometimes don’t even know why I cry mum”.

I’m hoping, as the ‘captain’ of this crazy ship we are riding on, that I will have the wisdom to navigate our way round, allowing the waves of tears and emotions to flow without reserve and judgement.

K, the delightful 7 year old, wants peace and love for each parent. She wants to please each one and not cause any tidal waves. K is in a different place. A place where it seems very normal and acceptable. She writes beautiful notes and says caring things to each of us, so that we are OK. She even asks me about how d is my boyfriend?! I’m not sure if she thinks that is how a normal boyfriend behaves. I’m not sure if this is her way of responding. Whatever the case, I’m hopeful I will hear God’s wisdom and have His strength to navigate the ship for her too.

Together, the three amigos that we are, love people. We love being invited.
We love being involved and being around folk. Christmas time was different for sure, not having the girls here. But it was so full of relatives (esp my amazing bro) and lovely friends that I hadn’t seen for yonks, that it became less painful and more joyful.

Having the girls arrive home a few days after Christmas, was joy.

Love you my precious girls. Thanks to my beloved friends. You are needed and appreciated.

(I’ll be back soon, we’re off again for a few days at Grandmas. There is of course way more to say about what one must leave behind and what one must gather up for the new year.)